I am kind of selfish, aren't I? I came on here about a week ago to vent out my frustrations on a job I was waiting for. I had sent a quote for the job and hadn't heard back from the client. However, a few days later, the client wrote back and I signed a… Continue reading A light in my dark tunnel
Dark skies, grey clouds, Nerves wrecking, heart clenched, chilly air, misty horizons, memories, happy, sad, longing, places I was, ones have never been, weighing me down, wearing me out, stomach sunken to pits. Amidst the endless bleak, hope resides, warm, blindingly beautiful, seeping through the ice, melting it, erasing it, block by block, fill me… Continue reading Hold on…a little bit longer
I have a headache, my neck is stiff and my anxiety is high. I am in panic. I just sent a quote for a job that I pray I get and I am worried the client might not like it. I am also worried I underquoted it. It is the conflicting extreme emotions that are… Continue reading It will work out Great!
Hello August Raindrops? My journal and Diary. I have abandoned this site for way too long. It's been almost exactly a month since I blogged. So I thought I should write a poem but it felt a bit weird to just start off with a poem after such a long unplanned hiatus. So I decided… Continue reading Of days, weeks of not blogging
I tried writing poetry this evening. I wrote three pieces. Only to delete them each time. To me poetry is a feeling. Every single poem I write is driven by what I am feeling at the moment. I can try to make it symbolic or twist it into something that won't expose my feelings. While… Continue reading Today’s diaries
I want to resent you, hate you from the depths of my heart, curse your name, but I can't. How could I, when the disdain I hold for you, is but a drop in the ocean of hate, I have for myself? Your words cut deeper than a knife, tracing the wounds my own mind… Continue reading You can’t hurt me
Today is 9th. I have a day until I am supposed to pay rent. Gosh I hate how much I come on here to talk about how I have discovered another layer to rock bottom. I read a tweet a while back by a blogger who said at some point all she was blogging about… Continue reading Today
I am often fascinated at how much of the society control our lives. There is a natural state of progression that you would not notice until you slightly deviate. It is in such circumstances that you feel a pull on your leg and hear the chains of societal expectations pulling. I had never planned to… Continue reading Of chains of societal expectations
Lost in this desert, eyes filled with sand, mouth parched, sweat dried to salt, future turned mirage. Where do I go now?
When it gets too late, too dark, too scary, feel around you, look for me, your hand will find me, right there next to you, right by your side, this, you can trust. I won't fail your need, when the loneliness creeps, turn around, into my embrace, I will chase it away, I am your… Continue reading I belong